Hi Baby – I didn’t know.
I didn’t know when I married you 20 years ago today that we’d still be together now. I didn’t know that we’d set the example for the rest of our family and friends to look up to even though I feel like we don’t know what we’re doing either. I didn’t know that we’d have 2 crazy little girls that have the best and worst parts of both of us. I didn’t know they teach us to be better people. I didn’t know that dads like you existed. I didn’t know that we’d continue to discover things about each other when we thought we knew everything there was to know. I didn’t know we’d buy a house, lose a house, find a home, and be OK.
I didn’t know that we’d watch each other suffer heartbreaks and encourage each other to get back up. I didn’t know that you had the courage to be who you are while allowing everyone else to be who they are. I didn’t know that you would make space for me to follow my dreams of owning a business, selling a business, moving a business, and venturing out of state…..because I just plain wanted to even when it meant sacrificing your family. I didn’t know that you’d continue to be an inspiration to all those around you, that you would encourage people to be happy more and be worried less – including myself. I didn’t know that you had an undying faith and unshakable belief system that allows you to trust in God while listening to me constantly question, question, question! And while I challenge you at the core of your beliefs with a different perspective based on my experience, I didn’t know that it was OK for me to not think like you. I didn’t know that life would get better. I didn’t know that I would cry while I write this. I didn’t know that life could be stable. I didn’t know that you had a silent strength and put yourself last to support others being first. I didn’t know that no one is beneath you. I didn’t know that we would like the same things like gardening, wine, and being outdoors. I didn’t know that I’d love
skunking beating you at cribbage (on rare occasion that I actually win). I didn’t know that I would be more in love with you today than I was 20 years ago….but it’s true.
I look forward to finding out more that I don’t know about life with you.